I'm going to write about my personal experiences in this article that I have experienced through depression. I will also share what I have learnt and how I have understood that I needed to learn to cope and even to eradicate it from my life. I am confident that I am not alone in having a number of regular periods in my life where I have become deeply depressed, yet I understand that this does not make it easier for me or anyone else.
Speaking to my parents about the factors affecting my anxiety and depression has been an important point for me, as I have been able to appreciate their thoughts and understanding. My mother believes that I had a type of depression gene as there have been many different members of the family who have had a number of similar symptoms.
I have as recently as last week suffered with a severe bout of this depression, however from it I learnt a valuable lesson. I had been having a bad period in my life where seemingly everything was going wrong. It was one kick in the teeth after each other. I had nothing to look forward to and decided that I needed a night out with my friends. There was one intention that I had in mind which was to get as drunk as possible.
I was hungover and felt very sick which was due to the amount of alcohol I had drunk the night before. Through the day I struggled to stay awake and as the day progressed I became more depressed. Then, later in the day, a negative part of my body, with a number of negative chemicals inside, took over my brain and made me think very negative about myself, my life and the depression.
The lesson I have learnt is that is not a good idea to go out drinking alcohol if you are feeling low and depressed.
When I discussed my feelings with my parents about my understanding and thoughts of my depression and anxiety, they told me some interesting and useful advice. They advised me to think about the different in life which I thought were getting me down and to recognise that they were depressing me. Then, I should talk over these problems with them, think about other more positive things, and look to find solutions to overcome these problems.
This is not at all easy to do but is something I now try. I have realised that it is good to talk about our fears and phobias and that there is nothing wrong with admitting that you are stressed and depressed.
I really do hope not to live with these regular bouts of depression as I do find that they are annoying me and that I am feeling upset about them. This especially true when thinking about them means that I am unable to sleep at night, which is something that can happen regularly. I am though, looking for a number of different ways that I can beat my anxiety and depression and overcome the negative feelings that I can and want to live without.
I now try to think positive in all situations, life is far too short to be always worrying about everything. I have also started to read a lot of self-help books, these have taught me quite a lot of new things and have given me many new ideas.
